jus a gurl

reading news about the war btw israel n lebanon..
all of a sudden...i felt that i'm being stupid for gettin worried over small n simple stuff..
its jus ignorant that ppl lyk us dun realize how lucky n blessed we actually were..
'' count your blessings, not your blemishes''
such a meaningful phrase.. simple but hard to achieve for most of the ppl out there.. not excluding myself either..
soo from today onwards..
i'm gonna live a happy life n appreciate everyth around me..
life's jus too short.. dun wanna spend it on worries n depressions..its jus not worth it..true yea???
hehe..=p

another thing..
i've alwiz been very obssessed about dieting n slimming down..
n it had never been a pleasant experience for me..
the ppl in lebanon are short or food supply n suffering lyk hell..
me on the other hand.. gets to eat soo much nice food.. but chose to starve myself..
hhmmph.. how ironic can dis be yea..
sighh.. such a shame for me to realize dis only till now..

lotsa thgs are goin around in my head..
hav been hearing n goin thru all sort of stuff which caused me thinking non stop..
i hav no idea wat's goin on in myself..
my skol has started already..n i hav alot of skol work to deal wif..
but.. thgs r jus not right..
i need extra time n energy...to clear out my mind..
i feel suffocated..n very very stressed out..
my head's gonna explode..
omgg.. y am i havin all these feelings???
sighhhhh...
hope i'll hav sumbody nice n understanding to tok to now..

i jus hate stuff related to computers n technologies..
it drives me crazy..
haihz..
well..i borowed daniel's webcam to see if i could use it on my mac..
proudly.. i found a free software avaible which could support his webcam.. which waas meant to be used on a pc..
feelin soo smart now.. hehe..
den.. i notice sumth wrong wif my mercury messenger..
it jus cant start up..
ooh well.. i shall jus download another version of messenger i guess..
soo..i found dis thgy called amsn.. a clone of msn messenger..
which could support video conferencing..
but i duno y.. when i tried to configure d webcam..
a short message pop up.."behing firewall or a router.."
mission failed..
but.. not givin up.. i went to d help page..
n bla bla bla.. followed d instructions..n tried one more time..
den.. my internet connection went off..
omggggg...i got so nervous coz i'm totally bad at dis kinda stuff,,
its eu jon hu does alld set up for our wireless connection..
n there's dis small column for IP add.. which is on automatic version b4 i changed it to manual..lyk wat d help guide told me too..
soo..i went to daniel n ask for our IP add..
key in d add.. but den another pop up message states tat d add is already in use..
omgggggggg... i hav no idea wat to do..
clicking here n there.. tembaking all d stupid numbers..
still cant work...
no internet for d rest of my holzzzz????
no wayyyyy...
i was soo soo soo worried..n den.. tears came out of my eyes..
beh tahan..
jus den... miracle happened!!!!
haha.. i think i did sumth smart.. but duno wat was it..n finally..
i was able to connect bac to d internet again..
huraay!!!
haha.. hence i came to a conclusion tat..
gals in trouble shud jus cry.. n everyth will be sorted out.. haha
its our privilege though.. sumth tat we can but d guys cant do..hehe..=p

wai jun says that i'm living in my own wonderland..
jian hui says that when he 1st see me..he noe that i'm a wonderland gal..
both of dem ask me to come bac to reality..
izit reli tat bad???
or maybe if i'm no wonderland gal..
i wont be as happy as today???
maybe i'll be a totally diff person..
but will tat ''person'' be gud??
hard to say..
maybe being a wonderland gal.. stuff that happens around me wont seem as bad..
i can naively think that everybody is kind n gud..
also..to prevent me from seeing all d ugly human behaviors..
but.. will it better if thgs were d other way round??
that i'm not wonderland gal..but a gal hu noe's wat reality is..
hu noessss..

on d tram..while all of us were busy tokin..
i totally forgot to check out which stop we shud get off..
when we passed by my uni..Victorian College of Pharmacy, Monash UniversitY Parkville campus..
i proudly showed dem how my uni look lyk.. hehe..
out of a sudden.. xn asked '' ei..which stop we shud get off arrr''
den oni i was lyk.. ''yea horr.. '' omggg...
den quickly i asked d tram driver how to get to d zoo..
n relii..we missed d stop..
he told me to get off, go bac one stop n turn right..
so we quickly hop off the next stop..den jian hui claims tat we shud jus walk since its only one stop behind..
but.. jus to ensure d directions given by d tram driver was correct..we double checked using the direction board on the tram stop..
thank god we checked..coz it is actually four stops behind.. we will be walkiing lyk mad den.. so we waited for d tram..
d most zha dou thg was tat.. it is actually d stop which is the same as my uni.. but i din noe about it..although i've been attending skol for lyk half a year..
plus..the zoo is located behind my uni..n i hav totally no idea bout it..
but still.. we managed to find our way to d zoo..=)

tuesday morning.. i'm suppose to wake up at 9.30am n give waijun n daniel a morning call..bcoz we're goin to d zoo.. haha..
but jus lyk wat i mentioned b4.. i couldn't fall alseep until 3o'clock..
soo..i failed to wake up on time..
''lonely.. i'm mrlonely..''..my fon rang..

zm: '' harloo..zzz''
wj:''ei..wat time we leaving?''
zm:''huh?? wattime??zz''
(check d clock.. found out its 10.30 am already..)
zm: '' sorry ar,.i jus woke up oni.. gimme 15 mins..where's xn arr??''
wj:'' i called him jus now..he comin d..''

quickly..i knocked on daniel's door..to wake him up..
den i brushed my teeth.. bath.. bla bla bla..
finally..got ready.. preparin to go..
go check out whether daniel's ready anot..
guess what..he's still sleeping!!!!!!!! omggggg

zm:'' ei.. 10.30am d lar.. u wanna go anot ?''
daniel:" dun wan lar.. u all go lar."
zm:" y lyk dis wan.. u say u wanna go,."
dan:''now oso 10.30am d..i need to bathe.. after that 11o'clock d..''
(cover himself in d blanket..continue to sleep..)
zm;" faster wake uplar.. dun need to bath to lar..''
zm:"stop acting lyk a baby!!" ( gettin frustrated)
but.. daniel insisted tat he wanna bath..so.. i told him tat we will wait for him to take a bath..
den xn called n said that he is already at flinders st..
finally..around 11.15am..we reached flinders st.. n took d no 19 tram along elizabeth st.. n off we go to the zoo..